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The times are a changin' [Dec. 7th, 2008|07:37 pm]
A Name By Any Other Would Just Be Uncivilized.
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I realize I promised you a huge update way back in September, but life has found away to interfere.

My internship ended in November - with no pick up as a full-time employee. The economy saw to it that I wasn't to continue working there as a full-fledged company man. I guess it was a bit ironic that the day I became satisfied with the job and optimistic with my future there that I found out that I had two months to find a new job.

The job market in Knoxville slowly dried up - leaving only retail jobs, technical jobs(mostly lab and power related), and that's about it. If it came down to it, I'd bite the bullet and work for some retail store. I'm afraid that with my newly minted Master's degree, that would only depress me. I realize that I'm not the only one with economical depression, but I always thought that getting my Master's degree would be a joyous occasion that would open up doors to all kinds of opportunities.

I interviewed with Northwestern Mutual. While I liked what I saw, calling my friends and neighbors and trying to sell life insurance for the rest of my life did not appeal. I know that at some point, after calling everyone, they would dread my call because they would be tired of hearing my sales pitch.

I also interviewed with 21st Mortgage. I did three interviews with them, including a lunch interview with one of their V.P.'s. After that interview, I received a phone call, with an offer of $12/hr. After the man offered me $12, he noticed a note to contact one of the higher ups, so he said he would call me back. The next thing I know I got a letter - saying they were going a different direction.

Very depressing.

Then I notice that Tusculum hadn't fulfilled my former boss's position. I was encouraged to do so, and interviewed this past Thursday. It was your typical academic interview. I enjoyed it. I did really well, even as some of the faculty asked some hardball questions.

The confounding thing is, there's a English Prof. position open. It's primary teaching load is Journalism. In retrospect, I really should have applied for it. I may have shot myself in the foot by telling some of the people I wasn't ready to teach because of my desire to get more freelance experience under my belt, and my desire to do more research. I know I could teach any Journalism class they throw at me. The position is also responsible for teaching composition classes and some mass media classes. The comp classes worry me, because I don't really remember any of my comp classes. But I guess I could wing them.

So I don't know. I'll know more stuff early this week. Salary, benefits, living arrangements - so many tough decisions. It makes me ill. The worst thing is, this entire weekend, I've been without MK. She's been off judging. I've only really talked to the cats about it - and Bretto on Friday. And Noah - can't forget Noah.

If someone had told me eight years ago that there's really no money in the media field, go be an accountant, or stay in business, I might've listened. It feels like my Master's in journalism is almost worthless. I could teach, but if I wanted to go to the secondary level, I could only do english. That's the only thing I almost have enough credit hours in to be certified.

I have no idea what I want to do when I grow up. The sad truth is, I'm grown up. I should know by now. I'm married. We want kids. I have no idea what to do to ensure we can do that.

So, who's going to bail me out?

[User Picture]From: docjen
2008-12-08 08:08 am (UTC)
Chin up BJ - !


No one ever knows what they want to do completely with their life - that would take a lot of the joy and surprise out the whole experience. But even still, once you do get your goals set and plans in place you have to always continue to dream big. You never want to accomplish everything, there has to always be a hunger there in order to continue the desire to thrive.

Whatever you do make sure it is something you enjoy. Something where you can get something out of the experience as well as give something back. In all my jobs, if I hated what I was doing I would be miserable and transgress the negative feelings into other aspects of my life. When you spend 1/3 of your day or more concentrating on something, the goal is to have it be something you care about and contribute to. Otherwise your other 2/3 of the day may suffer.

As far as kids go - you'll never be totally ready.
Lots of studies says the younger the parents the better, meaning your stock is not going to get any better in quality. That and if you want more than one child almost all midwives now say to wait 2 years between children.
Good luck with all of that - kids are a difficult decision but so worth it if you can raise a happy and conscious being in this world.
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[User Picture]From: absoluteroberts
2008-12-13 03:18 am (UTC)
Thanks for the kind words! We are well over due for a meet and think tank session!
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[User Picture]From: jen1587
2008-12-17 03:33 pm (UTC)
You would have been miserable if you had gone into Business. Trust me. I know. But you have to understand that one of the things I admire most about you is your passion for Journalism and everything about it. I wish I had that much passion about something. I'm still searching for mine, but you, you've got yours. And maybe it isn't taking you where you want it to right now, but I firmly believe that it someday will. Whether you teach or not, your passion for the subject shines in just about everything you do. Please don't ever let go of that. You found your bliss. Now you just have to be patient and let it find you.
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[User Picture]From: budhound
2008-12-19 05:28 am (UTC)

Dude move to Utah!!!

Move to Utah and I'll take care of the job problem!!!
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